Before 2006 comes to a close, I’ve a confession to make. This is for the times I get asked “Where’s Penny?” and when they tell me how she’s going to be so happy now that I’m home. Well, I’m sharing the sad news that it’s game over for both Penny and I.
Since I probably won’t finish my doctoral program till at least a year more, we’ve decided to call it quits. She’s endured the long distance for a portion of our six year relationship, and it’s one more year too long as we reach our 30s. I’m beyond depressed at this stage, but I wish her all the best for the new year with our new separate lives.
Upon reflection, every relationship is literally a new life. Each time we go through a breakup, we die spiritually, but we are soon reborn (respawned) and given a chance to start over. Looking back at the myriad of “lives” I’ve had the fortune of living, I feel blessed. Every life has taught me something new, and hopefully enough to make me a better man.
Before I go, a stranger once dropped me an email asking how I met Penny. Her reason for asking: “You 2 guys don’t seem much alike, though she seems like a really nice girl”. To answer, I met Penny at work in Singapore. We’re different, but it’s enjoyably humbling in that way.
A message to myself: Kevin, don’t look back and you’ll be fine.