Beautiful illustration by @jhsu reminding me that I’m now “Dr. Kevin Lim”
What seemed like an eternity ended up being nine years in the University at Buffalo, with last six years being in the doctoral program. These last few years felt the longest, with each passing day no different from the last…
Writing, eating, sleeping,
Alone, ashamed, angry.
While my mind saw an imperfect masterpiece, my heart sought to find the path to closure.
Refusing to stay any longer, I was granted the miracle of a defense. Beyond the powers of me, the pieces of the puzzle which should have been in disarray, fell magically into place in due time.
Paperwork, people, persistence.
With a last burst of fire, I delivered the presentation from which my future hinged upon. Questions were asked, after which I was told to step out for a while. A private deliberation later, the committee invited me back into the room. With hands outstretched, they each shook my hand, congratulating me as Dr. Lim.
Dr. Lim… the ring of which sounds too unfamiliar to me.
My friends seem happier for me than I have been for myself. Perhaps I’ve just been numbed by these years of waiting, wondering, withering. It will take time for me to be happy with myself. For now I jest.